Leaving school, leaving friends, riding an airplane, transferring to 'a new home', transferring schools, found new friends. - I can't believe this all happened in a span of less than a week. Though it's been almost 3 weeks since, well, okay, you get me, right?

I don't understand myself. I should actually be happy now. I'm closer to that person. Take a 4 hour airplane ride rather than a 10-hour plane ride. Oh, and that 10-hour plane ride doesn't even include the waiting time for the connecting flights and all. But I loved it there. My friends were amazing. My life was not much of a wreck. Most of the happiest days of my life was spent there. I don't know. But, hey. I'm starting all over again, still.. partly broken.

But, hey. What's the worse that could happen? Leaving a loved one already hurts enough. I don't think anything else in this world that exists could hurt me as much as that did. But at least I left with some pride. Er, a little. Whatever you call it, really.

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Let's rewind it.

A year ago.

How would you like it, if for the past year of your life, you would always wake up smiling? Smiling because, you felt that.. you were, well, loved. Like your life was perfect, like you were floating on cloud nine? What if, that's how you lived? You lived to think that your temporary happiness would never be taken away from you? What if you actually took those things for granted instead? Mm, I just wish I didn't take things for granted. I just wish it was all different. But it's impossible to rewind and change everything. Nothing in the world could ever go back in time to make things easier for you. I learned that the hard way.

I guess this is karma for what I've done. I guess. I don't know.

But, yeah. I really just wish I didn't. I wish it was all different. I wish, I could have it all back. I wish I was more appreciative, and I wish it was all the same again. I wish all the truth came out. I wish nothing was wrong. I wish it was just like before. I wish that, everything could be.. just.. perfect.